The bitterness will remain, the questions without answer. I’ve engulfed myself in the idea of a nightmare and this is how I will foresee my life. It is not the denial of reality nor the funeral of the pain. I will carry my pain as I’ve always done. Beautifully and proudly asI’ve learned to transform you into tiny peaceful thoughts and gestures. I’m becoming. Transforming into the woman I always hoped to be. I wear my head on my heavy shoulders and my heart is whispering sweet words of peace. I have seen hell and I’ve walked above and beyond it. I thank life for the lessons because I don’t know why I had to endure what I did and what I still will have to but it made me grow. I was stagnating, growing backwards actually. It wasn’t me. I’ll always say it out loud. It gets unbearable sometimes inside here but I’ve met beautiful people. I still miss my soulmates. One day we will be reunited again. I promise you this.
We are dying each second and we found a way to cope and live. That’s a disturbing thought. Likewise many others.
Have you seen the sun? It brings happiness.
To be reunited with the bohemian side. Ah how I’ve missed you!